Shaffree texted me yesternight . and he goes like this "haven't i shown you how much i love you bhy ? haven't i shown you how much i care ? in a r/s there's always pain , but i gonna try my very best not to hurt you cause i love you bhy . u miss being in love ? are you saying tht you don't love me ?are you lying to me all these while ? are you cheating on my feelings ?how else can i show u that im serious about us ? im really sorry if i have hurt you . really sorry . if u don't have feelings for me , then be honest . but if possible , gimme a chance to show u how much u meant to me . i love you"

and he sent again another msg . " after reading your last post in the blog , i understand . you lost your faith , i know . but you have no more love ? you wanna be alone ? i guess i should leave , shouldn't i ?"

shaffree , i never cheat your feelings (: i really want you by my side . but i fear tht you will hurt me . my heart isn't a toy . my emotions are god damn real . i'm not a rag doll that you can throw and take anytime . i know one day you will leave me , cos ntg is forever . i wonder how long you will be here for me . i wonder woll you ever leave me when i needed you the most . i wonder will you be able to make me smile all the tyme , and i wonder will i be enough for you not to look or have any emotions towards any other girl .u been really nice towards me . just the way i want it (: somehow i feel that i am not worth all that . yes , all guys are different . but , im shure , you will hurt me all the same .): you're like a superman in my life , but i am afraid that i can't be there for you . i'm not okay yet . i wanna be with u , but im still hurt .

when i fall in love , its gonna be hard for me to get out of love .

when i fall in love , i will give the whole piece of my heart .

there's options in my life , i don't want them , they ain't worth of my time .

can i count on you baby when i need someone here?

can you really show me everyday that you love me ?

can you handle me baby ?