I'm in my peace mood.
I'm wondering today if i really happy right now.
I'm effing sad.
Shaffree, you're nice babe.
But i am still hanging on the past.
I'm still thinking of shairi at times.
When i think of him, i will cry.
He was everything to me.
I need you, but is it okay for me to think like this?
I'm still wondering if you're true to me.
I'm still asking myself if we can go far.
I'm very sensitive when it comes to this issue.
this issue concerns me and my fragile heart.
sometimes, i wish i could just let be.
Sometimes i wish i need not to feel this way.
sometimes i will just cry.
never expect a passerby such as shairi had caused a huge impact on me ayer ?

I'm very cranky today .
feel like blowing up ! i hate to frown but at times i have to .
saw hilal,tas and sharul when walking home .
didnt notice them .
walked away even without talking .
look at them , look and look then walk .
they aren't my friends .
they are animal except for sharul .
he's nice but he's blinded by his friends .

Hmms . After i took my medical certificate , i walked down the memory lane . trying to reminisce about my past .
And i guess i have grown up pretty fast .
& i really hope that i learnt from my mistakes .
It's cute how those pretty little things make me become who i am today .
I remember how i used to help my mother each day for 1 dollar (:
It's cute when i used to beg my mother for a new barbie doll toy .
& by th next week , my new barbie doll toy dahh rosak . (:
I remember when people used to say if one day i grow up , i'll be a pretty girl .
I guess they are wrong huh ?
My mother always said that i used to be eye catching toodler that people would stop & cuddle .
When my mother said that , i can see that she was effing proud about me .
I know one day i will have to make her feel even more proud .
I remember how my eldest brother at my dad's side used to bully me .
& i was so afraid of him .
till now , i think i am still afraid .
My dad used to take me back to his house .
THAT WAS JUST PAST .
looking just recertly back ,
i remember my first heartbreak .
my first puppy love .
i still remember how shairi make me so cold .
back than , i remember shaffree was always there for me .
but somehow at that point of time ,
i still hoping that shairi would come back .
Just looking back , everything in th past , make me everything that i am .
I know one day i got to leave my teen life and start living like an adult .
but somehow i wish i could lay down beside my mother and hug her like i always do .
awww . man , im so sentimental !

my tiny heart is breaking apart .
it's hard for me to seek solace nowdays .
i'm tired after school , kene pakse org g kedai ker?
do they really have to hurt me so much just cause i rather not go to th effing shop?
why can't people see beneath this hard and self centered me , there lies a fragile heart ?
i sulk easily .
i act power so that people won't hurt me .
but somehow , i find myself breaking apart and loses myself .
sometimes i think i rather not cry cause it will make me weak,
sometimes , i just break down and cry .
she chased me out when my intention was pure .
now when i dun wanna help her anymore ,
she's begging me to help .
when i rather not , they hurt me so much .
pape lahh .
i'm gonna continue being so cold .