it's saturday and i have no plans sehhh.
i find it funny when i realised that i'm no longer as outgoing as dulu.
usually, im already joining th fun at town with my friends.
jie ying text me saying she's at town.
hmmmms. ((: i was studying at that point of time.
ouhh ya, i miss my ninja turtle. wondering if he's still mine.
Broken up with him like on the last two days.... zzzzzzzzzzz.
kay period about this breaking up thingy eheh.
if it's meant to be, it will be.
i hope he's enjoying himself in genting without me.
any idea how i think of him?
i look around and life seem so empty without him.
he used to be there texting me all the day.
saying he miss me everything.
but he changed. he dun care about me anymore.
he only think about himself.
everything he said, he thinks it's right and everything i said to defend myself are lies to him.
he blames in on my ego and my stubborness not to listen.
but does he know that i only fight back when i feel it's wrong?
his ego kills me and he doesn't know that.
he said i was the main reason we fight.
but he forgets that it takes two hands to clap.
he brag to me how patience he was to me.
i never tell him that i'm patience and very lenient too.
cause his changes had a big impact on me.
cause lately, i'm starting to fall for him.
starting to love him.
but how can i admit it ?i'm so proud about myself and i'm so scared that he would take advantage of my love and use it as my weakness .
he said wait for him to change. but how long baby? i miss you here.
but i gotta hold on. i need to wait. he said our book our love is written by me so that i make decision about our storyline. but does romeo knows that juliet is hanging on for him?
i miss him uh.
yesterday i saw farhan. my last time fling.
he happened to be eating at my mother's shop and i have to serve him.
stupiak-ly i pass him my number.
stupid dumb fark.
he was telling me how much he misses me.
how much he miss the way i hold him and my kisses.
=.=
he asked me if i was willing to be his one and only.
and my answere was,
"haha! da tnyer byk kali, and i always said no"
he sulked and asked me why
i said u got alot of girls
when u were with me also, you were saying ily to them.
kissing them all.
i don't want to be hurt by you.
so he waited for me after work.
i was like wtfark!
dammmn luhh.
tryna act all sweet and romantic .
i was like " i'm over you and zzzzzz"
so i was falling asleep in the bus then he pull me to lie down on him.
i pushed him away then he pulled me back.
so i groaned saying " fuck off , im att!"
so he was giving me that sadddddddddddd face.
whatever luhh.
he said before he left.
he will wait for me.
and i was like don't waste your time.
i'm not interested babe !
hah !
so yaaaa.
torn with jie ying yesterday night to study.
i studied alot till people around was saying " tk penat per?"
those are the mac workers and riders.
i made friends. just one night friends.
they were joking all the way and i couldn't help but to laugh along.
they are kind unlike the other group at another side.
giving us horny remarks and i got so angry that i sound them.
dammn!
jie ying went home at 5.30 and i went home around 6.15 .
so tired fall asleep.
and wake up to study again.
hah . now break !
i miss you .
how do i address you now since we are on th time out?
i miss you.
i love you.
i need you.
i want you.
you're my hot ass love((: