When i asked him nicely " da tk syg i ker ?"
He flared up asking me stop accusing him .
Why so angry and why that sarcastic tone ?
Am i at fault again ?
Am i suppose to leave now ?
I wasn't accusing . I was asking nicely .
I was JUST ASKING !
i da tak temper lagi !!
i tk marah siak smlm u lambat !
Im trying so hard to change ((:
but you make me dun wanna change , why bhy ?
Here i am , standing in th middle of the broken heart .
asal bhy?
Asal in this relationship , i yg slalu u salahkan ?
when i feel unsecured and i doubt certain things , tkle ke kite tnyer?
asal ?
da nak lepas kan kite?
i akan terime ini sume uh.
im not gonna beg you to stay ,
if staying hurts me , i should leave right .
when u already read this blog , im already starting to stop falling in love with you anymore ,
you said you will never hurt me .You said you'll be better than any other man .
Ya i admit , u used to be the best in loving me .
now you;re the best in hurting me whether u know it or not .
I loved you with my whole heart ,
but now , i need to let go right ?
thankyou for all these memories ((:

IMMA TELL YOU THIS .
If you make me cry one more time , imma leave you quietly .
Call me bitch or whatsoever . Dun forget that I already have give you warning.
(((:
Sitting down here and wondering , where is this all heading to ?
Am i at fault ? This jealousy still in me .
She was sexy and what am i ? FATS .
His exs sumer lawa2 . it should stay that way .
And i should stop thinking that i am pretty .
He changed from what i know first time .
where his sweet messages would make me smile .
His thoughtfulness and loving way would make me engrossed in him .
But now he changed .
I'm utterly disappointed but i dun wanna say .
I don't wish to spark a fight now .
If he asked me why i rarely msg him now is cause , i don't wanna be in a situation where
i need to question him .
Let him be . He deserve much more better .
Starting from now , imma letting him plan everything.
Let him plan our date and our outing .
Imma just keep quiet like i have always been .
He once told me in this relationship i was the one who wearin the pants .
Im sorry if i was the one who have th upper hand .
I should have know my place .
I may be smiling nowdays but many things run thru my minds .
Many question remained unanswered cause he just wanna make his stand known .
He overlooked all his actions which make me this way .
All he know was Im at fault , Im th one who make his attitude liddat .
But all these tears i have shed , does he know ?
All those points that i have been wanting to tell him , does he ever wanna sit down and think instead of interrupting ?
My feelings , are those not important?
He tend to be hiding each and everything .
he pretended to be okay but Im his gf , I feel the change and i feel all those things he hiding inside .
And slowly we are gonna fall apart , trust me .
Sooner or later one of us gonna be tired of all this and just leave .
Soon , one of us gonna break down .
And even how charismatic i am , i failed to get my point across .
He is getting more ego and hurt me .
But who am i in this relationship to tell him ?
He will attitude me but he insist on he's right .
did he realised that ?
all he know was to defend himself regardless of situatuon .

Hey ppl.
My mother.
A mother who have lost all her faith in me .
Who now has forget th fact that i'm her daughter.
A mother that is so cunning and menancing my life right now.
I wonder why she never have respect for her own children.
The one that she is supposed to give unconditional love.
Lemme tell you.
When i go raya anywhere.
I will see those loving mother who will sit beside their teenage daughter and still caress their daugther's hair .
My mother isn't that time. She is the one who love to demoralize her kids and when i or anyone point out her mistake , she will chase us out .
I wonder why.
Am i that bad till she neglect the fact that IM HER DAUGHTER?
I see those mother who will be saying " darling , go home eat okay?"
those mother who love their child unconditionally and never judge them by their mistakes.
those are the traditional malay mother whose life revolves around their family .
Mother , i love you sia , but why its seems that u hate me alot and if it's possible you wud have get rid of me?
MOTHER ,open your eyes .
PLEASE. Im dying slowly inside sia mother .
is it fun hurting me emotionally?
My mother is th type of mother who will protect me too much till i got sick and start to rebel .
but now when i'm taming down , you're not accepting me back .
Im your daughter . Th daughter who still crave for your love .
i miss th old you mother .
i regret fighting for my own freedom..
now i got what i want but i lost what i need .
Mother , i have been thru alot of things and when i wanna break down , i wish i cud tell you everything .
But i cannot . Cause you are too busy and now you dun care much abt th family .
Mother , i miss th old u .