21.10.10
Why can't he understand that in relationship , he have to be sweet to me ?
I love to be pampered in everyway by my loved ones .
But it seems that we are too busy for that . we are trying to make our life better .
Run towards adulthood . Responsibility . Maturity .
Im still a kid inside .
No matter what , i love him .
17.10.10
Not gonna meetg boyf today.
Let him enjoy his day without me la today.
Asyik2 ngn aku je .
nnt dier jelak baru tahu . HAHAH .
Yesterday i fought with him.
I slapped him at Tampines Mall . I was unable to control my anger laa yesterday .
Im lucky that he wouldn't lay his hands on me .
Gonna keep myself busy today . Hahaha .
Shaffree Iskandar .
He damn close to me . More closer than my mother is to me .
Hahahah !
16.10.10
Currently downloading songs for my itouch.
Hmmms. I'm reminiscing about the past .
Seem so yesterday i first step into my secondary school life .
I remembered how i used to dread all those lessons .
Hmmms .
Now i'm wondering what's next .
I'm hoping to go to a polytechnic .
And soon , i'm gonna be the one making th bucks .
O level is up next on my list .
5 more days to the actual paper . hmmms .
i should be able to score average . cause i studied okay !
hmmms.
14.10.10
fuck my life and fuck your life ((:
" Oh baby , i be stuck to you like glue oh baby wanna spend it all on you"
" my room is th g spot . call me mr flintstone , i can make your bed rock "
HAHAHA ! cheeky song .
It's just 10 in th morning eh . and i'm wide awake .
Fought with shaffree iskandar yesternight .
I don't know why but i still bear grudges against him . not as if i wanted it .
But i can't let it go . Im jealous .
Why she can dress up like that & when i wore something the same , he kick a big fuss about it ?
LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA .
WHY ARE YOU UP IN MY EAR ? SO QUICK TO CALL MY NAME .
I'm loving him strong just like how we used to when we are in our honeymoon period .
But now things changed & i'm helplessly hanging on cause i love him .
& when i confront him , he would just say " can you stop thinking negsatively?"
how am i to stop when you changed drastically ?
i told you more than 10 times .
AIYAAA.
my younger sister is playing with her duck toy with irritating noises .
HAHAH !
noisyy sia .
hmmms..
6.10.10
Im getting older , i shouldn't let small matters get into my head that much right?
If he doesn't love me, he wouldn't have stayed right?
Afterall, no guys would stay after being punched alot of times and had a flying phone across his face right ?
But, i miss the old sweet Shaffree .
Where he would stay up to call me and says i'm beautiful .
i miss him saying how much he misses me and all .
But i have to understand that he's working .
I'm sad that he no longer understands me like he used to.
GOSH, AM I LAMENTING?
I assidously tried to make us back to how we are when we first met .
The sweet romance .
Now , it's just me and him planning for th future .
Money , work , school .
We are starting to behave like adults right now .
And i missed getting pampered by him .
10months together .
so many things changed and he didn't realised that .
cause he's not taking it slow anymore .
He thinks only that we are getting better .
I admit we rarely argue now .
But does he know what im thinking inside ?
Im trying to give him the best right now cause i know i was hurting hom
aiya .
forget it . no point telling also .
3.10.10
I'm sad that we are always fighting ..
1.10.10
Eventhough we patch, th feeling is already different.
I rarely reply his text msges now because i'm still waiting for him to say he misses me.
Ya, after he read this, confirm he'll say he miss me.
But it will be useless liao.
Sitting here , thinking .
Am i at fault to patched back?
His love seems to have fade without a doubt.
I'm still hanging on the fine thread of hope.
Laughing and smiling i may seemed to be.
But my heart already crushed into million pieces .
Im trying so hard to keep it holding on together .
Does he still love me ?
Or is there another girl behind my back ?
Should i stay? Or should i just leave?
Where am i to stand in his heart ?
No more loving msges from him lately .
he's not asleep yet cause he sleep after me .
Got th time to slack at night , no time to gimme a call now .
Am i doing the right thing now ?
I wish i could just hear the truth ((:
Im sitting here crying about our state of relationship.
over there, he's enjoying ..
GTG.
