I don't know what's with us.
Are we ex who wants to be together again or just friends now?
He asked for a time off but i asked for a break up.
What for a time off? It's clear he's not happy.
Very much i wanted to hit him but i control my anger .
Cause i'm trying to stop violence .
He used to be there for me . Not working but still have money to meet me like two to three times a week . But now he's working , he rarely meet me.
I feel neglected. Maybe he said we have to sacrifice but Im so stubborn .
I want it to be my way or no way . Let's not point finger. I want to be mature about this .
We both have our mistake . We both need some space. But I'm afraid letting him msg other girls is a BIG NONO for me . He can have all the guys friend in the world , he can get along with them . why need girl friends? Unlike me, i don't get along with girls because i'm rough . But he doesn't know that. Im trying not to flirt . Im trying not to look at other guys.
But i need friends. I msg Suhairi , Irfan and Blackjack. Maybe i'm being unfair to him.
But i rarely text them . Maybe you think i'm trying to cover my own ass . But im not . I wanna be honest here. Im lifeless without him. He's the rythym of my life and my potential life partner.
Flaws aside , he's the best a woman can ask for. He would splurge for me and try to give what i want. But i took it for granted. YES I DON'T TRUST HIM . atleast understand my situation. I used to trust him . i used not to bother his phone.but after those pictures incident , i just felt insecure. Im sorry ! but gimme time , i'll regain th trust. But i guess my time is up. I wasn't the best for him , I was th WORST laa. I am not pretty anyway. He neglect me too much cause of work. )): too much till i don't really know him anymore. It's hard to go out with him nowdays. he'll be either too tired or there's time constraint. Like a baby, i need his love. His warm touch and his ever so tender kiss. He cried today and i was pretending to be strong like always. )): sometimes pretending to be strong is th wrong way. He's a part of my life . And now he's gone , Im like a human with no soul. I just planned to work and work and work. save money and pamper myself. isn't it suppose to be that way? Im terribly sorry)):
I left because you weren't happy. When i talk he would give me faces. He interrupt me when i talk things seriously. But bottom line , HE WAS PERFECT . im in love with him so madly. but now , i gotta leave. My heart shattered again like a jigsaw puzzle. but this time , im gonna fix it myself ((: win me back if you love me. im easy to console . ^^
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