enough is enough .
when will you stop hurting me ?
a note from me .
you have always tell me that everyone gotta their own life .
and now i'm giving back your life that i've took it away .
I'm sorry i took it away .
I thought i was your life like you were mine .
Never did I expect that our situation would be so bad .
If you didn't treat me so cold , maybe i would still have wait by th phone for you .
maybe i wouldn't even go to club that night .
Maybe i wouldn't even go back at 5.45 am tonight .
But now , the fyda that you used to know wouldn't be around anymore .
You told me we need to loosen up a bit .
and without warning , you are so cold to me .
Like i mean nothing .
now , i'm starting to be the fyda before we met .
that fyda never cry for a guy so hard .
that fyda who never love so hard .
I'm sorry that my sweetest thing on earth is turning to bitter .
And love starts to bite me slowly yet painfully .
does he know that i was hoping for him to call me to go home ?
i was waiting for my sweetnight smses .
but that i cannot get anymore babe .
memories of us is imprint in my mind .
rewinding like it's a broken tape .
it seem that i try my best to work this out , wasn't simply the best .
lies after lies .
and yet i was so honest with him .
i hope one day i know what to do .
till then , i'll pretend that i don't love you anymore .
till that day i know what to do with us ,
i'll keep strong and just enjoy .
meeting baby later ,
what would we be later ?
will we fight again , like always ?
from where i stand , i can see it's over between us .
I'm learning to accept the fact .
shh .
dun tell me lies anymore .
i should stop thinking and start living .
shh .
don't go on baby ,
i know it's just honeyed words .
you make me fall in love , now you got me crying .
where's the old you go to ?
but i realised i can't stay long enough to know th answer .
shhh.
it's over right ?
all i wanted was....
all i wanted was your attention . to take back whatever you had said that hurts me the most .
but that also i cannot get . it's ridiculous to be doing things that ain't me just to get you and your attention and just to fall back in that warm arms as i remembered .
everything was awesome when we still understand each other . those days ..
it's obvious that boyf doesnt wanna be with me . why am i staying for ?
tears already fall down so many times . i guess it's time for me to stand and be independant . right ?
i went to the club yesterday eventhough i don't feel like it .
had fun anyways but my heart was crying out for boyfriend to just notice me .
he can go out and have fun and totally forget about me , why can't i ?
is it because i love him too much or is it because i knew he doesn't care ?
tears slowly falls down my cheeks and i rubbed it away , pretending i was tired.
what could i say ? my heart is only with him .
jie ying , almost a month since i last meet her . irfan , it's been 2 months .
i got no time for them . i work from monday to friday . at times saturdays and sundays too .
when i off , i wanna meet my boyfriend but it seem that in his heart , there's someone elses he wanna meet . deep down inside i was wondering where did i go wrong ?
it seems that alot eof things he hides away from me ? or was i blind that i couldn't see it all ? why am i in love ? when love hurts badly ? he told me love doesnt hurt . loneliness hurts . rejections hurts . but isn't that the part and parcel of love ? i just wanna his attention . but it seem his attention also i can no longer get . the person who i used to know changed within a year . how could it possibly be ? i never been the type of girl who tend to enjoy and leave her boyf all alone . i used to be sitting at home and lived my life around the mobile phone . waiting and hoping they would call . but that girl was remained unnoticed . why the bloody hell should i be sitting at home and remained unnoticed ? being called irritating ? being called a bitch ? i should go all out right ?
they don't understand how i feel . when i meet my baby , i want to be hug like always . but all we do is fight . we keep on fight . where's the happiness ? where did the old us go ? where did the couple who our friend would envy go ? memories of us dating at cityhall , at bugis , at orchard with ee . at arcade . they just keep spinning in my head . and i cannot help but to break down , i was so in love that i couldn't see . he's becoming like any of my exs .mtk space . exactly the same . and he'll be saying , not everyone is the same , but when i flirted that time he said i was the same of his any exs . and i just apologize and when i tell him he's like any of my exs , he will blow his top and say papelaaa. i know it's time for me to go and sleep and pretend i didn't cry while writing this . i know i have lost his love , that's okay . i know , i know . for as long as i'm still breathing , i don't wanna to fall in love with anyone . my boyf promised me he'll take gd care of me . but in the end , i end up broken .
