this goes to someone special in my life.
remember when we first set eyes on each other , we never did expect to go this far in a short period of time. and we were both unsure of each other's feelings.
and as time pass by, we realised we need each other. and it's no longer a game or another tagged date. it's our happiness. and you've been wonderful in everyway baby.
but i wanna know. what's really deep in your heart.?
i'm still fussing about her. it might sound foolish and even insane to you.
but this is how i feel. you still love her baby.
my friends are telling me i should fight for what i love .
but i hold on different principles. the people who love me should fight to stay with me. cause that's when i feel safe. each time i try to talk to you about this matter , i just couldn't find the right time for us to talk about it. and you can see i'm getting rather restless.
five years of loving a person ; you got over her in less than 2 months.?
your reason was that she was cheating on you.
but if my sister who cheated on his boyf for several times and still are together due to the love they had was simply to long to be over just like that. mind you , they are five years together.
they spilt once cause my sis was cheating but they reconcile once again.
somewhere in your heart , why don't you start afresh with her. she maybe a flirt and horny. but i think that's where your love truly belongs.
she's everything that i'm not.
and you deserve that baby. a beautiful lady by your side who whimps all the time.
who love to be pampered and everything. the one who wears all the latest clothing lines and the feminine type. that's what you deserve. a dashing gentleman should go with a beautiful lady. try to relax abit and think about th good times you both had. it'll ease th pain.
but to receive true love , you need to give them endless chances till they realise.
and i don't think your heart beats for me. it's beating for her.
as i'm typing this down , my heart feels so heavy. knowing that we'll never go th same way again. and like adam and eve ; tragedy is a destiny.
search deep in your heart , try to dig deeper . you'll see the one who you truly love. and when you do , i know i will play no part in that.maybe i am over reacting. but why is it that your affection doesn't seem genuine.? why do i feel like you're putting an act for me to see.?
i've been trying to talk to you but you'll just brush me aside and then expect me to say it again.
the timing must be right. but i never can find th right time for us.
are you putting a show for me and her.?
to show her that you can be happy without her when you know you cannot.?
i like you better when we are friends. where we would spend the time talking about us and no one else actually matter.
what i thought was totally th opposite of the reality.
and tell me honey , am i wrong here.?
sometimes when i stare blankly at you or just keeping silence suddenly , know that i'm thinking about us.
and as much as i love you , i know receiving your love and affection genuinely is out of th question.
therefore i say ; i will support you if you want to win her back.
cause loving someone isn't about possessing the particular someone , but to see that someone happy even without you. and i believe strongly she's the key to your happiness.